I was made homeless in New York City this last September 2011 by multiple rat infestations and other varmint infestations in my apartment. I had had severe headaches and bites on my head since that time.
After trying all kinds of things including USA health care I decided to take up meditating. I don't know why but I had dropped my spiritual side when I took up with drummer boy oh so long ago. I take the total blame. Almost six years later we split up. I went to all kinds of therapy to resolve what went on during those years. I never turned back to spirituality except a decade later with two years of every day Bikram Yoga. Then again I had to drop that. Six years and I am picking up meditation to see if I can pull up another manifestation than current undesirable one that shows up in my hair in all pictures.
So now I am back to Wow! Who'd a thunk! I am meditating and I am getting all kinds of Wow! answers. When I went to the University of Houston in the 70s I was a social work major. I had lots of admirers. I went around like this dreamy Botticelli in the long California dreamin' skirts and ruffles with my hair braided. I made all my clothes and I was 100% wholesomeness. No anger vocabulary had ever crossed my lips. Actually I learned what I knew (past) from drummer boy who could curse like a sailor :)
Quite a few times students from the School of Architecture (SOA) asked for some time from me. They were oh so handsome. There was no way I was going to let anything keep me from going to New York City. I never got it. My mind was not California dreamin' though my body was. My mind's status quo was New York City.
So here I am applying to the SOA as a student and I am wrapping up this case study I have been doing on a public park here. Its layers and layers of yes you did the right thing. Every step of the way. Its just perfect. Its a very rich and perfect life. Gratitude. Who knew? I thought for sure I was damaged goods after the rats.
I am leaving Houston for a few weeks to work on one of my mini businesses in AZ. I'll be back. I do want to be back in New York City though. I have a feeling that despite Houston study I'll will be back in New York before this year is out. I wonder what my exasperated sculpture teacher will think of this direction. She gave me so much guidance and so did my Sumi-e teacher. I am full of gratitude.
Yes there are still many physical obstacles. I feel confident that continued meditation will see me through them. Today I received a free eye exam from an elite doctor. I paid for a retina exam. I was told I had chronic conjunctivitis and I have to take antibiotics for it. I have had it for quite a while. That's all that is wrong with my eyes. At 58 years I still do not need glasses and have no other problems with my eyes. I was tested extensively on my eyes' capacity. I did not receive this kind of care in New York City. Wow! Gratitude!
